Thursday, April 2, 2009

Path's with good intention's.

Oh what a week. A good week, okay half a week so far. But it's been great, it's been hectic, i'm sick, but damn am i happy and getting achievements under my bealt it's just great!



Of what may you ask am i on about? Well pre tell you obviously or reluctantly say. Okay i'll tell you, but in my normal way i will do it slowly, with headers, whimsical one's, long rants on topics feigning blog like criticism and of course self-reflection, self-deprecation and kudos with a hint of snobbery.



The Big Horah:

This is a long enough story so bare with me.


So several weeks back gammaman started the ball rolling on the whole Posse/Harem Debate thing that we got to organise. Now initially it was all tea and biscuits and discussing motions and sitting there while his confidence and love of certain idea's ebbed and flowed at us aspiring folk with different levels of informative points and repetition, oh the repetition. I've known the guy for 9 years, if there's anything he like's, it's telling the same story's over and over again with the same enthusiasm and somehow still being interesting and entertaining, although like anyone sometimes annoying about it. But for the people who only know him less than a year it was all golden advice and things went well. Then we had our Motion, something to do with "Coo-ba". Great, socialism, posh people, debating in a post-boom 1st world country in a prestigious "protestant" fortress of knowledge, it's genius. Yes the ironing is kind of tasty, but we're debaters, some of us master debaters and in one case the disturbing kind, but it's what we do. We argue the shit out of things we're not qualified to talk about and we make it believable. We make this shit look good, we're the MIB of arguing.

I had placement so my involvement pittered out. But the devotion, dedication and great work of the Posse/Harem proved very fruitful indeed. A diplomat, a couple of journalist's and experts and a national broadcaster segwaying themselves into our efforts, to surprisingly good results. So at some arbitrary point in the past Lenn emailed the Posse/Harem and suggested that we thank Gammaman for his efforts. This was fine, suggestions thrown around for a couple of weeks but and an idea had been finalised but no real action. So for some reason i said, hey wait a minute, i check my gmail every day, this isn't moving, i should probably start replying more often. Well something similar, blogetic licence if you will. I took action and asked the posse/harem what we were going to do and when. And eventually i got answers and things went fine. Then closer to the date of the debate i tried to get people to help finalise the gift. Everyone was busy. When i should have been doing psychology i went and window shopped and saw a few things but nothing final. As things got closer support started flooding back for what we were intending to do and i managed to get people to finalise the gift and it was all dandy, and just a bula bus all round.

Nickname's for the posse won't be mentioned but i think they all did a fantastic job and even people i didn't correspond with started chalking up once it was all said and done and offering to pay their way which says a lot really. What exactly i'm not sure. I can't really see the pessimistic side of it but i know there is something there, but mainly it's good that they cared.

Now THEIR debate went really well. I emphasise that point. Gammaman's brainchild was the Posse/Harem's achievement. All i did was buy a gift with their help for a friend. And clean up and some parliamentary tradition thing that was necessary. THEIR debate was great. A hypocritical socialist like myself was persuaded by both sides, but more so towards "Coo-ba". In my head i just thought the main point underscoring some of it was that some evil's and transgression's are necessary for other things to be good. Ie the old vulcan and very socialist phrase "the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few/one". And i just thought that was rather appropriate.

Now for political reasons, and lack of nickname's for certain people i won't go into everyone's involvement or anything like that but no one disappointed. In fact some people exceed some of my opinions of them. It was all and all a resounding success. And in my hectic sick state yesterday, running on Night and day and energy drinks somehow i pulled off my small corner of THEIR larger jigsaw with the posse/harem's general support, advice and assistance. All and all the future looked bright, we all did a good job. Exira and Delira all round, optimism abound, self satisfaction and sense of achievement, we all had a blast and it was great.


The Little Let down:

Unfortunately there's a real world. A world beyond the debating world. That world is a meta-verse, ie several worlds, such as love, food, pop-culture, peers, family and of course education/work. And that meta-verse is a hard thing to juggle sometimes. With about 5 hours sleep i went into lectures and spent my morning learning about the psychology of being sick. And also receiving the best introduction to a lesson on Hiv+/AIDS ever. Our rather good psych teacher from the Netherlands via LA and Dublin, started showing us a theatre group he was with in the 80's. They used to sing Victorian musical's to great popularity. Especially the local gay community. He sang a couple of witty little ditties and everyone laughed, smiled and was happy, surprised to get a song in a lecture. Then it hit us. 3 of those cast members are dead. Each slightly differently, but all from AIDS. Most of their audience died too. One of the cast was in denial and slept around even when sick. This was the beginning of the Pandemic. This when they didn't know anything. And it was just such a massive let down and really really really really really well done. It showed the true humanity of the situation. Something we nurse's loose when we're not on placement. It's in one way a reason why the theory is so difficult sometime's, it's harder to equate to people. This wasn't. It was just brilliant.

Now neurology of seizure's and positioning of stroke victim's followed, but i was more pre-occupied with a debate style listing of the bad aspect's of Federation society in Star Trek. I surprise myself, but i thought it was genius. It made me want to do a course on star trek so bad. Yes i'm so much of a nerd that i would take a college course on star trek and it's morale's, politics and so on. And frankly i would love it so much i'd almost want to teach it. If only i could be that enthused about nursing. I can be about debating, i'm weak myself but i can judge what works, i would love to teach others. Not as easy as teaching Star Trek, i'm not as much of an expert. But that would be the coolest thing ever.

Right I'm setting up the Irish School for further education in all matters star trek. First assignment Enterprise: Broken Bow; Are human's ready to go into space?

Now for lunch i popped out in the bizarre yellow orb weather and got a recession beater thingy from the King. I took it over to the society and intended to have my lunch and remain happy at all my ilk had done the day before. Well low and behold i walk in and am informed of an in-joke regarding what i did for Gammaman. Several people were also indicated in this joke and apparently it was funny. Now i'm not complaining. But it was a bit off, something was right about it. I was fine with the joke about me in the minutes, I was fine with being immortalised in the Sandford buzz for my unhealthy disaster of a hike for charity, with no sponsorship. No this seemed very different. And what annoyed me worse was that apologies where then pressed home several times. Off the cuff remarks were less offensive. Apologising suggests guilt. Apologising suggests i SHOULD be offended even i display no sense of being so. It was worse frankly. I don't care if people slag me or talk badly behind my back. If it's behind my back and doesn't come to me, then why the hell should i care. When i'm told about it then reminded with apologies, then i do inadvertently care. I've been reminded of something i was willing to forget, and that's not nice.

So nomm nomm nomm. Good burger, feck the cheese it's taste suits this fattening bun. Then i get a sarcastic poke that i should be helping out as im a first year. I was not told with what, or why. And because i am sick, because i am half sedated by medication, because i am tired and feverish, because of all i did yesterday i declined and was put off by the way my lack of involvement was implied. I had been ecstatic and optimistic up until that point. It was a buzz kill basically. But as i said jokingly to Gammaman "Remind me again what my job is?". I help people altruistically for no pay as an education. I work insane hours just be educated. I'm putting my parent's into debt with my education that i don't want to fully utilise when i'm finish. I'm sick, i do that shit all the time, i'm eating lunch. I'm here next week and the week after, just not now. All stuff that flashes into my head when faced with those comments. All i said was no i have a lecture, and that was that. I couldn't put up a fight or defend my decision and exhaustion because frankly i would look like a colossal selfish ass for standing up to a snide comment. Even if it is my JOB not only education wise but as a Posse person and Newb to help, i've helped before, i help a lot, that one time i didn't help and somehow i felt it was worse than when i did. I feel guilty and angry about it all at the same time. I should have helped but at the same time it felt like i was treating a MedEl patient that wouldn't care for itself and fulfilling the role of a care assistant not a nurse. Yeah, i know only i get that fully, but it has a point, somewhere, somewhere there's a ranting raving point.




TV RULE's, and yes i am addicted:

I had originally planed to give massive gushing testimonies to the show's i love to watch. But now i feel it's a lot more writing to do.....

What i will say is that I love Greek. It is possibly the best teen drama out there. Okay so Skin's is amazing too but that's very dark, edgy and hit or miss.(The three musketeers obviously don't know what love is, even if anyone could love Effy even without talking to her....) But Greek. Oh Greek, it's just so preppy and fluffy, self-aware, hilarious, addictive and just plain brilliant. Cappie being one of the major highlights of the show, with his "catchphrase" of "I used to major in..." which just sums up what cappie type characters really are. Rusty is sometime's annoying as the second lead but he is a good character and he ties it all together. The main focus is on his Sister Casey. She's a sority girl and brighter that you would think. You can actually see her developing into a stronger character as she face's of with her Enemy and former "big-sis" Frannie. And it's just a great great show. Dale also can't be left out as Rusty's conservative roommate, but he is heavily underused. Also Evin Chamber's is the biggest douche going, he's useless, the show's worst and most annoying character. I know he's meant to be the enemy but he's so reprehensible and so annoying that i would rather he wasn't in the show or they gave more weight to his selfish rich-boy actions.


Other amazing shows, BSG(Thnks fr th mmrs), The Big Bang Theory, How i Met your Mother, Grey's anatomy, Lost and Smallville.



Eh there was other stuff. But considering how opinionated i was and also how self focused my post was, and also society based and political/social i will leave out the fanciful leanings and character comment's as i seem to have blown a gasket of doubt on my involvement with something i love. A massive High followed by some crushing let down's that just seed lot's of negative doubt and just, pissed me off basically. Nay fun.

Until next time, hopefully more positive, hopefully more critical of non-social things and Obviously more of a next time.

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